Waffle.......

As the temperature gauge here has been hovering at ZERO, waffle actually sounds like a pretty good game plan.  They can go from your freezer, to your microwave for quick zap, then, to the toaster, to your plate in the matter of a four minute meal.

Frozen.  Hot.  Buttery, w/syrup - SWEET!  Chicken and Waffle is my grandson's go to at IHop.

Another definition of Waffle perhaps ain't so great.

North American English, fail to make up one's mind.

British English, speak or write, especially at great length, without saying anything imporant or useful. You mean like your blog Victurd?  Funny haha.

I've admitted before having depressing moments.  I ain't been to the doctor 'in a minute' (a couple years), they tell me that's "cutting of one's nose to spite one's face."  And, I would admit to guilty as charged.  Back then, I was taking an antidepressant before I gave up the Dr's visits.

Victor, come clean.  The hell you trying to say?

I'm trying to say I'm not sure, perhaps, some would call it waffling.  This ain't braggadocios, but, pretty much all my life I've heard, "pretty laid back.. don't get too riled up about much, nice." Or, as one of my FB friends wrote, "A good egg."  Sometimes I truly wonder if true.

Please know, this ain't a complaint as I've truly had a blessed life, truly.

I do think, for the most part, I'm happy, even when I ain't out in public so there's zero chance it's an act.  I do think I'm guardedly optimistic in life.

Then, there are moments where it's like swimming an uphill battle and I ain't never swum uphill before.

AI, Google, Encyclopedia Britannica tells me, about depression:

Biological and Genetic Factors.... I'm not certain that's true before me, maybe some, after.  Medical conditions, uh huh, a baby affliction I have can and does change much.  Sometimes, scratch that, a lotta times, it's easier to stay home than get out. (My pat answer, I just have to now chase slower women!)

Psychological Factors.....  I'll admit to moments of low self esteem...  All my life I've hated 2nd place, and, I've been there quite often.  I do overthink too,  ya think?  Ha, if you're like me, you've sparred in the ring with yourself for way more time thank Rocky and Ali spent combined sparring.

Environemental and life stressors.  For sure, death of a loved one.  StReSs. Me? NeVeR!

Victor, please stop, you're showing your arse.  Ain't that how the Brits spell it?!  I'm trying to get to a general point, and I ain't quite there yet, so I must go on.

Lifestyle and Substance Use.  Oh hell, he's going here?  Uh huh.  I enjoy my beer.  YES, there have been times I've had more than enough.  Today, speaking of this stage of my life, rare is it I'll have more than two beers in a day, and it's usually in attempt to make me tired, so I can sleep..  Cigs?  Another story.  I am 73, yain't talking me outta that one. I know I should, Doc has told me "that's what's gonna getya."  Germans, this one anyways, are hardheaded.  I don't do the drug thing, not even a gummy to sleep.

So yeah, I check many boxes......... OLD AGE.    LOSS OF A LOVED ONE.  SELF DOUBT.  AFFLICTION, yada yada.

YES, I'm going to the Doc soon, and NO, this isn't an attempt for sympathy at all..no comments about "hope you're better.. go to doctor... " yada.. .  the next paragraph is really my purpose for writing all this stuff.......

HERE IS WHERE I'LL RATIONALIZE......... and if you wanna tell me, comment as to BS, be my guest.  I think, the present National Climate, affects us all, and not in a good way, and it's my belief that plays a HUGE role in society, the depression within. I'm not the oldest, certainly not the wisest, but again, I feel this plays a HUGE role today in us all.  I've never seen or felt our land like this before.

My question is...............  am I The Lone Ranger in the societal role today, Tonto?

Thanks Kemosahbee,

Love, Victurd

(Tonto and the Lone Ranger had setup camp.  During the night, their tent is stolen.  Tonto wakes the Ranger and asks what the stars tell him. The Ranger gives a long, intellectual and scientific explanation about astronomy, time and weather.  Tonto replies, "Kemo Sabi, it tell me you dumber than bucket full of cow muck, someone stolen tent.")